UNQUIET SUBLIME : LEE ROUSELL Wednesday 24th November 2021
I am Lee Rousell. I have been diagnosed with Bipolar 2 and Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder. I have recently, however, had cause to believe this to be, not entirely accurate. I would like to be tested for Aspergers and ADHD. I can’t see this ever happening though.
I seem to have an attachment to the theory of The Sublime. I believe there is a relationship between this, and my experiences of mental health episodes. What, I believe defines me, as a person, is that I need to express myself and my feelings and search for the sublime as being part of me. I am an artist, for this reason.
My mind seems to be out of kilter with everyone else, and makes social contact awkward. What is there, in my mind, needs to come out. I feel like a lost soul, without a voice. I never quite connect. I used to think I was wrong, but I am not wrong, this is how and who I am. It can be frustrating, and causes exclusion form that which others take for granted. Life can be lonely. All this can not just stay in my head, it needs to show itself. I Iive in a world that I call “Unquiet Sublime”.
Photography taken from video. Title “Suffocation”.
Powerless is me
Suffocation takes it’s toll
Coming up for air